So a little side story about how my day at the cancer center went today....As you might have expected I have been fixated on November 10 as my "end date" ever since September 26 - which was day 1. So in my calendar I numbered the days, skipping Columbus Day, all the way to day 33.. November 10. You should also realize that I am sooo tired of this routine. My body is exhausted and I am eager and anxious to be finished and move on. On Fridays I meet with the nurse and the Dr after my zap appointment, so today I was hanging out in the little waiting room (called dressing room 3) with my old men friends. Mr O'connor casually motioned to the notice on the wall and announced, "Friday they're closed, we get the day off".. I was stunned as the implications sank in... Friday is my last day... it can't be closed.. I need to end this... I cannot carry this over another weekend....
As soon as lovely nurse Michelle showed up I started to cry, quietly and embarrassed and it also hurt my throat because I was immediately congested... but I could not take this kind of emotional shock. I had expectations and I wasn't sure how to express the loss I was feeling at not being able to get zap #33 on Friday...
Well, as it turns out as soon as Michelle realized what I had gotten me so upset she assured me that I did have other options and Dr. S would take care of me... she is a fabulous nurse and very good at empathy, so I did feel better and embarrassed.
The good news is that Thursday will be my last zap... yippee, I will just have to go two times on Thursday, once in the morning and then once in the evening.. but I will be done! Relief!
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