Day 7 Denial

Is pretending to be healthy the same thing as denial? I have been trying to be quiet all week and whisper and rest my voice. I told Larry and Kitty that everything went great and I just have to rest my voice until I am healed. I did not want to talk about it all week, or remind them that I used to smoke. It is a funny feeling to be pretending that it is all behind me and I am healing when I know that the worst is still ahead of me. My throat is throbbing - is that the healing or has the surgery set free all the cancer cells and they are invading me?