Saturday, September 16, 2006

Day 22 My table at Starbucks

For some reason I have always been very anxious about where my seat would be ... I mean in a restaurant, at a soccer game, at a parade, any event... I have to have a good seat even if it means stressing my family out and getting to an event an hour early. It is a stupid habit, and I am trying to let go.
I cannot let it go at Startbucks. I have a few tables that I prefer and if I don't get one of those places I become immedialty out of sorts. I have a specific table that I have become to think of as the "friends therapy couch". This is the table where I have met quite a few of my friends to tell them what is going on. I arrive early, and get my coffeee (although I have now switched to decaf) and then I stalk whomever is sitting at my table. I even prefer sitting on one side of the table so that I can watch the front door to see if anyone I know comes in.
I have had a long relationship with Dorothy and although our kids don't see eachother too much anymore we have made it a point to get a coffee together every couple of months. It is refreshing for me to know such a committed christian that can still be a fabulous liberal politically. I hadn't seen her in over a month and we both we so happy to finally have a chance to catch up. Again, I had no idea how to tell her. We sat down and she immedialty launched into school issues and Marvin updates and how her job was going. I knew that I had to tell her and so.. there is no gentle way. It just kills the conversation. I need to stop sitting at the table at Starbucks... it sucks.

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