Day 49 Self Help Queen

Seven Steps to Healing , Yoga , Accupuntcure , Mediation , Visualization , Prayer

All my recent life I have been a serious self help queen, if you need a book about relationships. weight loss, raising kids, going to Disney, hiking in NH, biking in Boston, learn to pray, learn to meditate, every exercise video ever... well I have it, and generally I have read them all and even use some of what I read in my real life.
Any time I have ever had a problem or one the kids says something, or any kind of behavior I have to rush to the library or the bookstore and get every book on the topic and then put post it notes in and fold corners down for L to read and then generally I will "discuss" what I have found out. Discuss usually means me talking about all the different methods and L agreeing or not by nodding his head and says things like "interesting"...
I have realized over the many years of marriage that it is how I work through an issue, and it is not the way that L does, so I continue to talk it through with him and I don't get disappointed when he doesn't ask to borrow a book...
So, of course, when all this started L and I took a few trips to the book stores and the library, but I really didn't find the right kind of book. And it might be because I was really not sure what was going on, or maybe because it was about me and not one of the kids. Or maybe it is that it was me that would have to adapt to a new normal and a new behavior and all the books that I looked at were really scary and harsh. I think that I am just not ready for a macrobiotic diet..